Day 108: Final today!
Well today is the day, finals! Well the only final I have this term really. I’m keeping my fingers crossed, but as you may have noticed from yesterday’s post, I’m a little stressed out… to say the least. So what’s happening today?
Well the exam is three hours long, I’ve been assured it won’t take that long, but that is what we are scheduled for. This is for my stochastic processes final, there are no notes, no calculators, and no hope! Okay, maybe that last bit is an exaggeration, but still.
I’ve spent the last week really working on understanding the material and it is my hope that I will not do what I historically do and panic, forget everything, make stupid mistakes, then walk out of the exam and magically remember not just how to solve the problem, but how monumentally I screwed it up. Like I’ve said, I’m a bad standardized test taker.
Knowing that about myself, what did I do differently this time? Well first and foremost, I had my anti anxiety medication swapped recently, I’m hopeful that will help. While this hasn’t changed from my normal routine, I attempted (and to be honest failed) to get a good night’s sleep, although I feel pretty awake at the moment. I tried to emphasize things that I knew I was having trouble with over the term, but to be fair, it’s really complex stuff and I’m not great at memorization, soooooo yeah.
It’s tough since there isn’t a lot I could change around about my routine. Sure I could be more studious, but no matter how much effort I put into studying the results always are the same. I’m trying harder to manage my anxiety, which would probably be the biggest issue I have when it comes to exams. I’m cautiously optimistic, I’ve had brief moments of clarity during an exam. It’s rare, but if I could figure out what I did to get to that state, I could try to repeat it.
Going forward with my education, I don’t anticipate too many more exams. That is the good news. The bad news is that until I hit that point, I don’t know what more I could change to increase my performance. Don’t worry, I’ll update everyone tomorrow with how I did.
Until next time, don’t stop learning!